Sitting here at a local cafe i glance out to see myself in the distance. The street is filled with those from upper class society to those who look like they haven't yet discovered their true selves. I ask myself " Which group do I fit in ?" I am a woman that looks the role of Hollywood but deeply struggles to find her true worth. For you see somewhere along this road called life i allowed a man to come in and robe me from my true self . I sit here with Big Black Breakfast At Tiffany Sun Glasses playing the role of Audrey Hepburn a so called social light that plays the role of Hollywood but yet to be discovered. If you too look at me you would think I am Hollywood. I sit here with Big Black Breakfast At Tiffany Sun Glasses. I glance to see a women in front of me also with Big Black Breakfast At Tiffany Sun Glasses and I wonder if she to has something to hide. I smile and she smiles back. "The day is beautiful," she says as she then passes me by as i reply "yes it is". But beautiful it is not for i have been sitting here since 9am this morning and my watch now says 2pm. The busy day flying by like the planes that fly and like the birds that oh so sing. But the only thing busy is the thoughts that filter my head. The thoughts of what it is that brought me here and how hard it is to leave the current relationship I am in. For I sit here sipping on my latte that's about to end. Wishing it was my lover my so called best friend. For I pray his life would end so I can smell the fresh flowers and wake up without taking a shower. For his body I wash and not mine. I scrub and scrub his cruel words of anger and the touch of his power. I sit here with Big Black Breakfast At Tiffany Sun Glasses looking like I own the power. 3:15pm roles around and my son I must pick up from school for if I' am late that so called man will make it a date to remember. I hurry through the streets and remember the book i read to my son while putting him to sleep . RUN RUN AS FAST AS YOU CAN YOU CAN'T CATCH ME I'M THE GINGERBREAD MAN. Now i' m the woman running with the Big Black Breakfast At Tiffany Sun Glasses. People look at me as though I have a bus to catch or maybe they think I look like a Hollywood actress like Halle Berry or Angelina Jolie playing the role of a woman running through the streets of Manhattan.
We get home and I thank God he isn't here. I look at my son with a si of relief. For every second we must embrace as i feel the freedom like the slaves. I sing in my heart FREE AT LAST, FREE AT LAST, THANK GOD I"M FREE AT LAST ! I start to make sure all is ok for if something is not he will make sure i will feel like a child that has to be taught. 45 minutes go by with smiles on our faces then we hear the key in the door and now we both feel poor. Robed from our freedom and the smiles on our faces we both stiff up like a statue in Eden. My heart starts to pound as i try to be brave, for strong mama I must be for my child needs a strong play date. 2 minutes go by and my HELL begins for something he must find wrong with my beautiful song.
Bedtime roles around as I tuck my son in bed for peace he will have from that blood sucking leach. I now go to bed feeling like Julia Roberts the role she played in Sleeping With The Enemy. I turn my back towards him and the tears stream down like a cold flowing shower. I am crying and pleading with you for me and my son must be discovered. Are you my agent ready with a script one that will consist of a women in power. A role my son and I will play happy and free like little children that play amongst the green trees. "PLEASE RESCUE ME THIS HOLLYWOOD ACTRESS the women that now sleeps without her Big Black Breakfast At Tiffany Glasses. By Lisa Dunk

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